There are lots of ways that I'm learning to ease up and trust, but today I was just noticing, not trying to fix anything. And here's what happened.
So, my naturopath is on maternity leave and today is the first time I meet the person filling in for her. He's a Body Talk practitioner. I still have lots of scepticism about this practice but here are the first things he said to me after tuning into my body. Remember, he doesn't know me at all.
"Would you call yourself driven?"
"Would you say you're competitive?"
What? Was he having a personal conversation with my shadow? How did he know I was just thinking about that? Well, apparently that stuff is showing up in my tummy and in my jaw. So we had a little conversation about my masseters (my jaw muscles).
Practitioner: "It seems like your masseters have simply forgotten how to relax. It's like the rest of you can have fun and relax, but they can't."
Me: "What would masseters do for fun?"
Practitioner: [confused look] Well, I didn't really mean--
Me: No, I'm really curious. What do you think masseters would do for fun?
Me: Yeah, that makes sense. Oh! What about singing?
Practitioner: Singing would definitely be fun for the masseters and good for your body in lots of different ways.
So, I'm giving myself singing for homework. Who knew that my shadow gets all worked up when she doesn't get to sing?